I’ve talked about facing the past before. I’ve talked about moving on, and not dwelling on those issues. Well, I’m back again where I started, trying to resolve issues that have crept up and showed themselves to me recently. I found an old journal of mine that I wrote during a time that, I had not expressly thought to be too troubling, not as troubling as my childhood for example. After reading several pages, I found myself wondering, “Was this really me?” and “Did I forget all of that?” because what I read was least to say, “disturbing”.
I continued reading, and I started to get annoyed with myself. I thought my past self to be pathetic, stupid, desperate, and needy. Not only that but much worse. However, I caught myself and stopped myself momentarily to see why I reacted this way, and why had I been that way.
The mind cleanse is a bit more complicated and less “mechanical” than the body cleanse. I’m working from home for the next couple of days therefore I have an advantages. Here is what mind cleanse will involve:
The body detox is basically colon cleansing mixed with fasting and taking care of my body. So why am I even detoxing? Well, I’ve started craving and ingesting a lot of sugary things, cookies, candy, and such. I normally don’t do this so I think it’s time to stop for a minute and let my body catch up and find out what’s behind these cravings and need for sugar. I’ve also been eating a lot more so I’d like my body to relax for a couple of days and take care of all the nutrients currently present. In addition, my bowel movements have been irregular, so that’s a sign that I should get back to my natural rhythm.